It's funny that way

I'm sort of a sensitive person. Despite what you might glean from these missives. (all 5 of you). So when I had to call people to inform them of my mothers demise I was verrrry upset by the response I got from her "friends" and "family". I cried about it for days. And then my best friend and I talked about it and after I listed the people she said "Think about what all of those people have in common."
Debbie C. = Was nice to my face when I called her but then talked shit about me behind my back to my mothers friends. Stuff like "She would STILL BE ALIVE if Rhonda would have reconnected with her". Yes well..I'd be on drugs myself. But let's discuss DEBBIE for a second.
Debbie who had to HIDE OUT AT OUR HOUSE FROM HER HUSBAND because he found out that not only had she run up HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS in credit card debt (and thus jeapordizing her families financial future) she was also fucking his best friend. I never said a word or judged her for that.
Deanna W. who practically hung up on me as I told her the news. Deanna who would go out with my mother to clubs but then go home with a different man each weekend leaving her husband to think she was at OUR HOUSE. Then she divorced and proceeded to have a "relationship" with a married man causing his family untoward pain for A DECADE. She then married Larry who was NEVER faithful..but then let's judge Rhonda for not talking to her crazy homicidal mother who threatened her every phone call.
And the family?
My Aunt L. She who turned my mother into a Saint. This is a woman who is so fucked up on drugs herself the last 10 times I've talked with her that I can scarcely understand what she is SAYING.
My second cousin E. Who, rumor has it, has a child by a relationship she had outside her marriage and was widely considered to be the town whore in her 30's.
Her daughter T who instead of expressing condolences dropped me from her FACEBOOK. Really? This from a girl who spent her freshman year in college PARTYING while pregnant. Guess when her family found out she was carrying? THE DAY SHE DELIVERED. Then she married a crack head. Then she divorced him and married some latino man who decided he wanted to pretend she didn't HAVE a son and so her PARENTS raised him. Niiiiiice.
So apparently..the SOUL-LESS have a hard time expressing condolences.
A couple of day's ago I had a (rare) dream about my grandfather. One of only 3 since his death. A friend of mine who is psychic says that when a dead relative is in your dream they are actually visiting you. So in this dream he is FURIOUS at my mother. FURIOUS. He is so angry with her. He says to me "Don't worry about that ole bunch (meaning my cousins and mothers friends) They are a sad, sick bunch of so and so's not fit to shine your boots. They will pay for their judgement of you. I tried to protect you from your mother as long as I could baby. I really tried. I'm sorry."