I FEEEEEEL ya Nene

I SOOO know how NeNe on Real Housewives of Atlanta felt tonight ...meeting her supposed real dad for the first time. Not that I watch that show regularly or anything....
Just lately I'm in a "delicate condition", there is a swine flu epidemic going 'round that is bad for that "condition", and it's getting to be Winter in Colorado.
OH who the hell am I kidding? I don't MISS AN EPISODE, CHILD. For ANY reason.
I love how chickenshit her dad was. "Meet me outside...let's talk in private...I don't want you near my family". LIKE SHE DID SOMETHING WRONG.
My biological father acted the same way when my mother called to have him meet me. (Which he was waaaay too too too chicken shit to do... ever).
To him I say "Bitch please...your ass would be broke and in jail if she had done the RIGHT thing and taken your sorry country bumpkin self to court"
His family vilified me, lied about me (Jennifer), stole from me (Jennifer) and made sure that his side of the family NEVER had a good thing to say about someone they were too cowardly to meet or know. A throw away child, if you will.
Well NeNe. Here is the beautiful thing about karma.
By wishing struggle and pain on me..they wished it on THEIR OWN CHILDREN.
By wishing fatherless-ness on ME they wished it ON THEIR OWN CHILDREN.
By wishing rejection and bearing false witness and stealing in MY LIFE?
They WISHED IT ON THEMSELVES AND THEIR OWN CHILDREN.
My mother struggled to raise me and put me through college alone. She ruined her health doing it. Her M.S. caused brain damage (according to her neurologist) that caused her to be permanently bi-polar. This ultimately led to her sad death.
They wished that physical pain and mental illness on my mother by their actions. So..they wish it on THEIR CHILDREN.
And I see it playing out accordingly. I don't even have to wish them ill.
They did it for themselves.
In fact I feel sorry for them. Shock and awe INDEED.
Those that were jealous of me and tried to bring me down to lift themselves up or to cover for their own crimes...well..their lives show the result of such hate and disregard.
I tried many times to reach out to give them a chance to alleviate that karma. They rejected it. So my hands are clean.
NeNe...just forget him. And stand by and watch God in action girl.